Wednesday, August 3, 2016

The One who got Away

I should be sleeping right now but I just can't sleep. There are alot of questions in my head that are left unanswered. Unanswered because I never had a chance to asked them. Its been so long... I should have move on right?? Like what the heck is goin on why can't I stop myself from thinking of the same person everyday! Sometimes I want to just stop thinking at all. They say your mind can cause you happiness or can torment your soul, and guess what i am being tormented with my thoughts of you! Tormented in a sense that I missed you so much and I just can't do anything about it.
I always say I will soon forget you. Forget your face and forget all the memories we had. I wish I could erase the pain just like that..the pain...the pain of loving someone who will never be yours. You know how painful it is??? You might have done worst if you were on my case. And so I read alot of moving on pages on facebook checked online on how and what to never worked because I DONT WANT TO MOVE ON. I am afraid that if I do..I will loose all those beautiful memories..those memories I will forever keep. Sometimes you just love to stay where you are not because you're waiting but because you believe that where you are is where you belong. The happiness I felt is alwats greater than the pain. So even if I cry myself to sleep sometimes..I still found myself smiling everytime I think avout you. I just loved you too much...too much that I will endure this pain just to make you happy. I love you sugar and I miss you so much! I wish I could tell you this..maybe soon maybe not at all.. In another life I would make you stay So I dont have to say you were the one who got away...the one got away....

#fiction #memoriesoflongago

Friday, May 6, 2016

Songs of Love

Sometimes in life we meet some people who leave their footprints on the sands of time, along the shores of our soul. I knew it was true the moment I looked in his eyes. He got this pair of expressive eyes, it is one of those eyes that tell thousands of stories. I hope to read those too :(

Meet Him:

I first met him at the office we were on training for a product update. (I cannot name it). I remember him wearing his long 1970's print polo (not really vintage, just the print), it's gray. He was quite but he got my attention. He stands very tough though he is skinny haha! We introduced ourselves to the group but I wasn't able to grasp his name then, my team mate was busy talking to me. From then on, I became his stalker! wOW big word not really just simple glimpse here and there..

"Call me obsessed, but I need to know your name
Your age, your address and where in the world you came from
It’s silly to think that I’m on the brink
Of falling right off my rocker 

Oh, I want to know
All about your mom and your favorite song
And why you hypnotize me
Well, I tell you what
I’m the definition of obsessive-compulsive, crazy love "

-Mindy Gledhill Crazy Love

I am not sure if he mean to get my attention too or its just my mind playing games with me but I would always caught him looking at me while I am taking in calls. One day I passed  by his station- this time we are both acquainted with each other. It was Friday- he grabbed my hands - I was wearing a royal blue maxi and its low back so when he took my arm the side of my dress fell off and had to grab it. He looked at me and he said, "Goodbye" and I was like-" Why are you saying goodbye?". He did something bad at work and he feared that he will be terminated. I thank God he did that coz that where everything started. 
We became friends in an instant. Smoke buddy, aux buddy (aux-in BPO industry that break time). I cannot forget the time we had a smoke break with one of his team mate. While walking on the street he suddenly grabbed my hand like he wants to hold it- unfortunately were in public and everybody knew me. So I cant have that sweet moment with him. Sad :( but honesstly I wish we did. 
Oh, I want to know
If you ever plan to hold my hand
And why you hypnotize me
Well, I tell you what
I’m the definition of
Obsessive-compulsive crazy love
He started asking for my number. Oh yes you did!! (Im talking to him). It was December 26. I received a private message on my Facebook coming from him. Were friends in Facebook- I just cant recall wither its me or its him who sent the friend request. LOL. Everything happened so fast until New Years' eve.  He touched me and I touched him. I held his hand and somehow it didn’t matter where we were, or that we didn’t belong. Nothing mattered, just me and him. Though I didnt see any fire in his eyes then- I know I loved the feeling, the feeling of being with him. 
He became so cold after that though which makes me very sad. We went out a few times after that but it was nothing- boring! I thought-it was just a plain Holiday Affair nothing more.  Until one early morning 12:30AM I just sent him a message out of the blue he responded and told me he's out with friends. Without hesitation, I grabbed my bag and joined them. We had a couple of beers and other are drunk. One of the guy there who happened to be one of my acquaintance as well is with us. He said he likes me. I didn't have the courage to say No when he said he will be the one to send me home. (In my mind thou, I want HIM to accompany me). I was drunk and God forbid this other guy almost kidnapped me. Thank you Mr. taxi Driver.! I sent him a message and I fell asleep- When I woke up Im in front of the office! Wala!! Good thing I had friends around to have my phone charged. And so meet again- that day I feel so different. His eyes that used to be empty now looks longing. He looks sad. 
We’re as different as can be
I’ve noticed you’re remarkably relaxed
And I’m overly uptight
We balance out each other nicely 
It happened more often. We  even go to the beach together, meet his friends, meet my friends. I cannot deny the fact. I fell inlove with him. Well I was inlove with him already and I fell inlove with him more nad more everytime we were together.I could never forget the glow of his eyes. We touched and melted in each others arms. The shadows of the night danced in ecstasy. We were there, two souls fusing into one. The moment held still as our worlds crashed down. 
Sometimes its amazing, how some things which are not supposed to exist, appear out of thin air right there in our faces, looking into our eyes. How something which is supposed to be wrong and bad, could feel so right and true.
So I cross my heart and I hope to die
That I'll only stay with you one more night
And I know I said it a million times
But I'll only stay with you one more night

Try to tell you "no" but my body keeps on telling you "yes".
Try to tell you "stop", but your lipstick got me so out of breath.
I'll be waking up in the morning, probably hating myself.
And I'll be waking up, feeling satisfied but guilty as hell.
-One More Night by Maroon 5

I know he needed me then because he just broke up with his girl. It was funny how everything seems to be so perfect yet so unreal. Felt so right and everything seems fine but I know one day he'll be gome for good. That type of love that no future holds you. 
Some things which feel so right, doesn’t necessarily belong to us. Souls can’t be captured, just as spirits can’t be held within. Love is pure love is true, and when there’s love nothing matters. And the best part is that it doesn’t even require a happy ending, because there never is an ending to it. I wish. I was willing to stay.. to love him and be there for him..even if things are so complicated but I know he won't. sad truth, He does not love me- or I don"t know he never said he does. I would like to know thou.
He loves her. I hate her. I hate her because he loves her. I wonder if he would ever love me if we met earlier that we did. If he met me first. Would he ever say I love you to me?? Will we have a chance together?? All I have now is his friendship and I want to keep that because I want to keep him with me. even though he doesn't care about me as much as I to him, its fine. When you love you should not expect anything in return right??
Why don't you stay
I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely
Don't I give you what you need
When she calls you to go
There is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay - Stay by Sugarland
But whenever he is with her I cannot hide the fact that I am jealous. That I am hurt!.I would just  pretend as if I hear nothing at all... but my eyes just can't hide the pain, my tears just flow down through my cheeks.. I wished he wad beside me.

I cry at night, questioning my commitments, questioning my faith, questioning my very existence. Did I exist in this world? A world without him? Or did I live in the moment which lasted for an eternity, which had nothing in it but us, which had everything in it. 

My questions never found an answer, because the truth remained, no matter what I did to deny what I felt or what happened, that moment told me what I never realized – that I am alive.

In a four months he upturned my life. Everything became topsy -turvy. Still it felt so right. I looked at his eyes. And I saw regret. It killed me from inside because all I could feel , was him. I couldn’t take my eyes off him. He seemed heavenly bathed in the moonlight. Glowing in purity reflected in itself. I wanted to tell him how he blew life into me. But all I wanted to say, melted away in tears...
I dont know how to end this, Ill just leave a message for you instead.
You know how much I care about you, no how much I love you. Sometimes I feel that you dont care about me at all but it's Ok. Thank you for making me feel special, thank you for making me feel young and free. I consider you not just a friend but a best friend. I wish we were more than that thou. i am happy for what we are and for all the time we are together. I could not and will never excahnge those to anything else. I'm sorry if at times I am really emotional- and I get so emotional more often now. i hope you understand. Please don't leave. Don't leave me - I love you and I will alwys be here for you. I wish you happiness wither it means its going to be my loss. 
P.S I'll stick around until you'll say I have to go.
They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
-Lucky by Colby and Jason Mraz

Monday, May 2, 2016

OPM Singers and artists FREE campaign for Duterte!

Published on Apr 20, 2016
Dahil nangunguna si Mayor #Duterte sa lahat ng polls at survey, ginagastusan na ng mga kalaban ang paninira sa kanya at kay Sen.#AlanCayetano--kung kaya't kailangan ng bayan magkaisa sa tambalang #DuterteCayetano. Sa pagtakwil ni Sen. Marcos kay Mayor #Digongdahil sa kinahaharap niyang mga intriga, muling napatunayan ni Sen. #Cayetano ang kanyang katapatan--na hindi siya nang-iiwan ng kasangga sa oras ng krisis.

Muling nagsama-sama ang ilan sa mga premiyadong OPM artists para sa isa na namang anthem para pag-ibayuhin ang suporta ng sambayanan sa tambalang DuterteCayetano.

Music & Lyrics by Njel de Mesa All vocals performed by Njel de Mesa, Chad Borja, Monica Cuenco, Demie Fresco, Shane Anja, NDMsingers (Anjelica Guanzon, Angeline Villanueva, Suzanne Remollo, Jenva Barra) Recorded & Produced by Njel de Mesa at NDMstudios (Manila) Musical Arrangements by Njel de Mesa All live instruments performed by Njel de Mesa Directed, Shot, Produced & Edited by Njel de Mesa NDM Artist Management Division Head: Jan Christine Reyes NDMfilmGroup staff & Crew: Jan Christine Reyes, Anjelica Guanzon, Jhumel Bobares, Benj Espina *Monica Cuenco appears courtesy of VIVA Entertainment, Inc.
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ublished on Apr 4, 2016
Cesar Montano Sings "Duterte Para sa Tunay na Pagbabago ng Pilipinas"

Song & lyrics by: CESAR MONTANO
Rap & lyrics by: JEFFREY TAM

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Published on Apr 26, 2016
Tama si ROBIN, Simple lang ang kailangan natin...
Ikalat po natin itong Campaign Ad dahil po sa atin lang po naka depende si DUTERTE. Tayong mga EMILIO AGUINALDO ang MEDIA ni DUTERTE

ACW for DUTERTE (Assembly Of Contact Center/BPO Workers for DUTERTE)

             ACW for DUTERTE (Assembly Of Contact Center/BPO Workers for DUTERTE)

photo credits from:

A week ago, I received an invitation from a friend about this ACW. It excites me since I am an avid fan and a supporter of Duterte. I wanted to join, but due to some circumstances I wasn't able to do so-


April 30, 2015 (Saturday)
Rizal Park

This is an open invitation to those who are working or have worked in a BPO environment, whether you are an agent, a team leader, a manager, a trainer, a workforce or quality analyst, or part of admin, recruitment, IT, accounting or any back office team, or even home-based. 

We will start with a motorcade at 3pm. Please PM me if you want to join the motorcade so we can get the necessary permit (number of vehicles is a concern).

Program will start at 4pm. It is still a work in progress so we need all the help we can get. If you know solo performers, dancers, bands, event hosts etc. w
ho are willing to share their talents, please let me know.

If you are a photo or video enthusiast who can whole-heartedly cover the event, please PM the organizers, too. We need to show the world how it is possible for us to come together for our country despite our crazy schedules.

Let's paint the town red and blue. Print and bring your own campaign materials. Event graphic designs are in the works. PM me your email address if you need a soft copy so we can send it to you once available.

We need volunteers to put this event together. Comment "ME" below if you are willing to sweat out to help out.

Bring your own food and water, and then CLAYGO as we always do here in Davao.

Lastly, spread the word. Feel free to pass the message on to fellow hardworking BPO Workers!

Let's ACW for Duterte! 


So, I compiled pictures and comments from the page itself instead. To all who attended, thank you for the support!! Go for Gold Mayor Duterte-soon to be Mr. President. 

Kudos to all organizer! It was a success! smile emoticon from Onscore team, kaisa kami sa pag babago Sa gobyernong totoo! Mabuhay po tayong lahat! God bless Mayor Rody Duterte!! #du30 #ducay — withOvit Ravina and Bharby Sebastian.
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"A leader must be a terror to the few who are evil in order to protect the lives and well-being of the many who are good."

_Rodrigo Duterte

 — with Mitch CedeƱo and Saleh Lagunsay.

Who's Your President?

Philippines National Election is fast approaching, as a matter of fact we only have 8 more days to go! Have you already decided to whom will you give your vote to? Me, personally had made my decision 2 months ago and haven't change a second-LOL.FYI, this would be the first time that I will be voting. 

But how do we choose who to vote? Do we watch their campaign adds and simply base our votes there? Or have you watched the past three presidential debates? I did!
So let's get to know our presidential candidates.

Before that thou, please check this. Got this from one of the blogs I use to read. credits to the owner. link of the blog is below the picture.

Jejomar "Jojo" Cabauatan Binay, Sr.
(born November 11, 1942) is the fifteenth Vice President of the Republic of the Philippines under President Benigno S. Aquino III and is one of five remaining candidates in the 2016 Philippines presidential election.
He went to the University of the Philippines Diliman for college and graduated in 1962 with a degree in Political Science.He continued on to the UP College of Law and graduated in 1967 then passed the bar examinations in 1968. He got a master's degree from the University of Sto. Tomas in 1980 and a master's degree in National Security Administration from the National Defense College of the Philippines.
He was appointed by former President Corazon Aquino as officer-in-charge of Makati City from 1986-1987. After his assignment, he was elected as Makati City mayor from 1988-1998.[2] During this term, he acted as the Metropolitan Manila Development Authority (MMDA) chairman from 1990 to 1991. In 2001, he was reelected as mayor until the end of his term in 2010. He resigned as Chairman of the Housing and Urban Development Coordinating Council and as Presidential Adviser on Overseas Filipino Workers in June 22, 2015.[3]
Binay is a member of the United Nationalist Alliance (UNA), which is a coalition between the Pwersa ng Masang Pilipinoand the Partido Demokratiko Pilipino - Lakas ng Bayan. It was founded as an electoral alliance in 2012, and later became an official political party in 2014.

Binay's platform:

photo credit to CNN

Binay: Higher economic growth
As far as the vice president is concerned, Gary Teves, former Finance secretary and current UNA treasurer, said Jejomar Binay wants to continue higher economic growth by investing more in infrastructure and ensuring that action is taking place quicker.
"We first have to generate more resources externally by inviting foreign investors and making sure that environment is really conducive to foreign investments," said Teves.
"We were amending economic provisions of the Constitution to allow foreign investors to invest in areas that have been disallowed or limited — land, public utilities. He will also emphasize on inclusive growth, and provide emphasis on health and education."
Rodrigo "Rody" Roa Duterte

 He was (born March 28, 1945), nicknamed Digong, is a Filipino lawyer and politician of Visayandescent. Duterte is among the longest-serving mayors in the Philippines and has been mayor of Davao City, a highly urbanized city on Mindanao island, for 7 terms, totalling more than 22 years. He has also served as vice-mayor and congressman in the city. Known for his zero-tolerance policies against criminals, he earned the nickname "The Punisher"


Duterte's platform:

For 22 years, he is the Mayor of Davao City, ranked as the 5th safest city in the world. A lawyer by profession, he was elected during the time when Davao City was dubbed as a killing field.
He restored law and order, engineered the development of Davao's economy while suppressing criminality. Tough talking and no nonsense but with a soft spot for the poor, women and children, Duterte is committed to restore order in the government and bring peace and development to every province in the Philippines.
Grace Poe
Date of Birth:September 3, 1968
Husband:Teodoro Misael Vera Llamanzares
Father:Ronald Allan Kelley Poe aka Fernando Poe, Jr.
Mother:Jesusa Sonora Poe aka Susan Roces
Children:Brian, 23 | Hanna, 16 | Nikka, 11
Grace Poe is driven by a desire to serve. Her effectiveness is at least in part due to a trait that is rarely found in politicians: strong empathy. She believes that it is from learning from the people themselves about their concerns, and lending her voice to a collective vision for the nation, that she can help find solutions that will really be felt by the majority.
enator Grace excelled in sports and became a champion debater at Assumption High School.  She attended the University of the Philippines, Manila from 1986 to 1988 under the BA Development Studies program.  She was chairman of the College Freshman Assembly in SY1986-1987, and Sophomore Batch Representative to the Student Council in SY1987-1988.  Poe was a College Scholar in 1987.
She finished her tertiary education at Boston College with a degree in political science.  She moved to the U.S. to join her husband in 1991.  There, she taught geography and math to preschool children, then worked in the scientific technologies field until 2004.
Grace's platform:

Manuel "Mar" Araneta Roxas II is a Filipino politician and the grandson of former Philippine President Manuel Roxas. He is a candidate in the 2016 Philippine presidential election. Wikipedia
BornMay 13, 1957 (age 58), Quezon City
SpouseKorina Sanchez (m. 2009)

Initially one of the leading contenders in the 2010 presidential election, he slid down to become a vice-presidential candidate in order to make way for fellow Senator Benigno Aquino III, who eventually won. He was defeated by MakatiMayor Jejomar Binay of the Partido Demokratiko Pilipino-Lakas ng Bayan (PDP-Laban) by the narrowest margin in the history of the Fifth Republic. However, Roxas filed an electoral protest with the Supreme Court of the Philippines, the Court sitting as Presidential Electoral Tribunal. On June 7, 2011, President Aquino appointed Roxas as the new Secretary of Transportation and Communications to replace outgoing Secretary Jose de Jesus, and he took office on July 4, 2011.Afterwards, on August 31, 2012, President Aquino nominated him as Secretary of Interior and Local Government, replacingJesse Robredo, who died in a plane crash.
Roxas is the standard-bearer of the Liberal Party for the 2016 presidential elections in the Philippines. On July 31, 2015, at an event dubbed as "A Gathering of Friends", he was officially endorsed by President Benigno Aquino III to continue the present administration's reforms, collectively dubbed Daang Matuwid ("straight path"). In the presence of their political allies at Club Filipino, where Roxas had announced his decision to withdraw from the 2010 presidential election to give way for Aquino's presidential bid in 2010, Roxas formally accepted his party's nomination.[10][11][12] On August 3, 2015, Roxas officially tendered his resignation as Secretary of the Interior and Local Government in order to focus on his presidential campaign.

Miriam Defensor Santiago
is a Filipino politician, notable for having served in all three branches of the Philippine government – judicial, executive, and legislative. Wikipedia
BornJune 15, 1945 (age 70), Iloilo City
SpouseNarciso Santiago (m. 1970)
EducationUniversity of Oxford (1997–1997), more

She earned the degree, Doctor of Juridical Science, in the United States. Dr. Miriam Defensor Santiago is a globally famous personality, because of her legal brilliance and courageous example in fighting corruption.  In a nation where many public officials are charged with, or suspected, of plunder, her honesty shines like a light in the darkness.
She has brought honor to the Philippines in several ways.  She is the first Filipino and the first Asian from a developing country, to be elected in the United Nations as judge of the International Criminal Court. The ICC hears cases against heads of state.  Thus, she put the Philippines on the global map in the 21st century.  Unfortunately, grave illness forced her to waive the privilege of being an ICC judge.
For two years, she suffered from chronic fatigue syndrome. In June 2014 she was diagnosed with lung cancer, stage 4 (the last stage). But with her signature humor and bravery, she fought back, and her cancer has regressed.  Even cancer cells are afraid of her!
She was chosen as laureate of the Magsaysay Award for Government Service, known as the Asian equivalent of the Nobel Prize. She was cited “for bold and moral leadership in cleaning up a graft-ridden government agency.” She was named one of “The 100 Most Powerful Women in the World” by The Australian magazine.

And if this would help you, this is the latest survey result: