Wednesday, August 3, 2016

The One who got Away


I should be sleeping right now but I just can't sleep. There are alot of questions in my head that are left unanswered. Unanswered because I never had a chance to asked them. Its been so long... I should have move on right?? Like what the heck is goin on why can't I stop myself from thinking of the same person everyday! Sometimes I want to just stop thinking at all. They say your mind can cause you happiness or can torment your soul, and guess what i am being tormented with my thoughts of you! Tormented in a sense that I missed you so much and I just can't do anything about it.
I always say I will soon forget you. Forget your face and forget all the memories we had. I wish I could erase the pain just like that..the pain...the pain of loving someone who will never be yours. You know how painful it is??? You might have done worst if you were on my case. And so I read alot of moving on pages on facebook checked online on how and what to do...it never worked because I DONT WANT TO MOVE ON. I am afraid that if I do..I will loose all those beautiful memories..those memories I will forever keep. Sometimes you just love to stay where you are not because you're waiting but because you believe that where you are is where you belong. The happiness I felt is alwats greater than the pain. So even if I cry myself to sleep sometimes..I still found myself smiling everytime I think avout you. I just loved you too much...too much that I will endure this pain just to make you happy. I love you sugar and I miss you so much! I wish I could tell you this..maybe soon maybe not at all.. In another life I would make you stay So I dont have to say you were the one who got away...the one got away....

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